So the new girls I work with have done pissed me off. I need to go to the interview for OHM. Bullsh*t. I don’t. That man has done nothing ,nothing for me but ruin my life. And they go on and on about how my child needs a man in his life. No he does not. I was raised basically without my father and so were my brothers and we were just fine. If you think your child needs a man in his life then you are freakin’ projecting and you need a man in your life. Stop f*ckin’ telling me that. I don’t want a man in my life, I want my son and regular sex with a fantastic boy toy(please note this should be an adult male who is very well endowed). That is all I need.
So he has called OHM that is and I do need to go to court with him on next Tuesday. And OHM sounded sad when he called like I wouldn’t go or like he is worried he may actually be deported. That is not going to happen. I will not let that happen. I don’t want to the do the INS interview because I am not really married to him anymore and I don’t think I should do it. I am not going to lie to the US government or myself. I don’t want him anymore, but I don’t want him to leave. He may drive me nuts most of the time, but all of this is for Pumps. I don’t want my son raised without his father. I want him to see what he is missing by being the way that he is. I want Pumps to see what his father actually is. I hope that by the time Pumps is old enough, OHM will have become the man that he is capable of being, but I know that is not going to happen. He has always wanted the single life with a girl who will stay at home and raise the family and say nothing about what he does all the time. That is not a marriage or a life anyone I know would put up with. And I know I put up with it for way too long and know there are complications.
Actually OHM has not been that bad, he was over all weekend and him and Pumps hung out. They seemed to have a good time. It just makes me sad that I have all these memories of Pumps and he doesn’t… the first step, the first word, the first standing up peepee and so forth. OHM only hears about these thing from me, I know he gets to see it for the first time, but it is usually old news by that time and Pumps has moved on to something else. I know he will have a lot of regrets in his life. I know that we will be one of them.
[later]
I am having really bad luck. I accidently deleted all my pictures and music from my computer. Apparently my car insurance is not good enough for my loan people and they took it upon themselves to give me insurance. Someone is going to get chewed out tomorrow.
Well I guess that is all but it is alot.
As I used to say in high school “life’s a bitch then u die so fuck the world and then get high”
So, I have changed jobs and currently have no health insurance for pumpkin and myself. Why the f*ck is it so damn expensive and crappy. If I pay say $4200 a year for coverage, I should not have to meet a deductible to do anything. I pay for this crap, pay the damn doctor and don’t freakin’ argue with me about it.
I really wish we would just go to socialized medicine. Everyone would be covered, granted it may take you 6 months to have surgery that you need, but at least we would get rid of the damn cheap*ss insurance agencies that only make money and provide absolutly no real coverage for the people that pay the damn bills.
All of this has really started because my insurance at my last job was kinda crappy and expensive and at my new job it is really crappy, but extremely cheap. So what should I do? Find decent private insurance or go with crappy and cheap? I have found some that I like the sound of it and it is only $372 a month with dental for me and pumpkin. I am going to go and talk to the human resources chick at work tomorrow and compare all the plans that I have come up with and make a decision and get some damn insurance. Pumpkin almost fell and hit his head on the toliet today. It could have been extremely bad and expensive.
So my mom is an operating room nurse at a local hospital and she stated that all the doctors were getting together and getting organized to protest the healthcare reform. They do not want government controled healthcare. You know why, because they can’t make any freakin’ money if uncle sam is footing the bill. If we had socialized medicine my life would be grand. I could take pumpkin to the clinic when he needs his check ups or to a sick clinic when he is sick. For me, I only go when I do not get better and really think I need an antibotic or once a year for a physical. Oh right, gyn once a year as well. Moe goes maybe 3-5 times a year, he does have asthma, but I really don’t think he does, but whatever doc. I will give him his medicine like instructed.
I digress. I don’t think that people think about all the old people that no longer have health insurance and how bad medicare actually sucks. Or the kids that don’t have health insurance because their parents don’t make enough to pay for it or make to much to get it free. And people b*tch and moan about welfare mothers. They can not make enough money to support their kids, let alone pay for their healthcare so they stay welfare mothers just to float. Has anyone ever thought of that? Has anyone ever thought about the single mothers out in the world who make decent money but still have to pay $372 a month for health insurance for their kids and then after that they might have just enough money to float, but still they live in the parents house because it either provide insurance for my child or get an apartment? And then don’t get me started on freakin’ daycare. I would if I could be a stay at home mom, just so I don’t have to pay a mortgage payment every month in daycare alone.
When the hell did life get like this. Remember when all you had to do was get up go to school, come home, do homework, play and then maybe chores! When did I start to care about what my government is doing about healthcare? I guess since I now have to find my own and keep my child covered. This is a great nation. Can we please try to work together and make it even better for pumpkin? That is all we should ever try to do is make it better for the next generation. Isn’t that what our grandparents and parents have done for us? And now we fight dirty in poltics and block great men and women from doing what is right. And then we listen to the idots who say that the presidents healthcare reform plan is all about ethynasa.
Now I must really stop because I could go on and on and on.
So I leave for las vegas tomorrow. And I have strep throat. Can you believe that crap? I have no idea where I got it from, but I feel so much better today then I did yesterday. I just have to remember to take my antibiotic and not drink too too much! I am so pissed. Where the hell did I get strep throat?
This will not and can not ruin my vegas adventure. Mmm will have the best 30th birthday ever if it the last thing I do.
And I can’t sleep too excited. a wild weekend awaits. I should at least try to sleep.
