Men should not wear holiday sweaters please see below…

So I am completely bored tidy and there is No hope of leaving anytime soon. What the f*ck! Why must we be tortured like this? I really need something to do and they have everything blocked on the Internet on the damn work computers. I wonder if my laptop would be blocked if I brought it in and plug it up? Probably.

Yes, yes I know I have not been writing much lately, just too freaking busy with life. Well how is my life going? Thanks for asking, it has been well the same. I work, I come home, I play with pumps and then he goes to sleep. I pick up the house and then I go to bed and repeat every freaking day. I know it is not going to change, pumps makes it this way, but I really think I need to get a life. I just hate to leave him or not be there for him. His father is practically gone and I feel like I should be there.

I have not been completley bored. I have gone out with my friends and done things around the house and stuff. I know I seem like I am complaining, but really it is not that bad.

And the whole divorce is going. I had to turn in a bunch of paperwork to fill with the courts. It is done and now I am just waiting on ohm to get served and hopefully get this over with soon. I am ready to be free of him.

So thanksgiving is coming up and the girls I worked with asked me if ohm was coming. I said no he is not apart of my family and he is not invited to thanksgiving. They were like he is pumps dad and you need to make friends with him. No I don’t and if anyone needs to be trying to make friends with anyone it is ohm with me. I have given him everything I could possibly given him and I have nothing left. I now need to make sure that pumps and myself are okay and taken care of. I can’t be friends with him. I have tried and he has just kept on doing what it is that he does. He beds to fix this and he doesn’t care, he doesn’t want too.

You lately he has been calling mom mom and that just has me totally pissed off. She is not his mom and again not apart of our family. And then Monday or Sunday he left a chandlier at the house for mom. He go it for $15. he has not paid child support in 2 weeks or more (not sure how long) and he is wasting money on stuff we don’t need. Why don’t you take care of your child? I mean you are a man enough to produce sperm and Fuck, take care of your damn responsiblities before you waste money! Jackass!

Okay done. You know I am so tired of him. I really just wish he would go away and leave us alone. I truely think that we would be so much better without him. Pumps is young he won’t remember and when he does ohm is just going to break his heart. I don’t know. I am just so tired of him and him invading my mind and heart. He needs to get the fuck on and I think I am the only one who can do that. Damn I hate self-realization. Why do I have to do this shit?

Arghhhhh!!!!

I think I need some beer or maybe just good sex? Huh?

So in my boredom at work today I went to eHarmony.com and di their little test thing. I answered all the questions to the best of my ability. I thought to myself how acurate are these personality test, yes it is just a personality test? Who knows? Well when I was done I went to get my matches. It said according to our records you are still married. No shit Sherlock I am getting a divorce and am seperated. I really want to call a chew someone out about that.

Anyway I am not sure what I should do about the whole online dating thing? Will I be a loser? No I don’t think so. Well mmm might call me lame, but I am sure that eharmony is not for her. I don’t go anywhere to meet people and ms. McCormick’s mom always said you will never meet anyone in your living room. And then there is actual dating services and speed dating and all kinds of crap. I don’t necessary want to meet someone to marry just someone to Fuck and hang out with would be nice. I don’t need a relationship. And then I think of the people that have hit on me in the past eww! I need something to filter them. No more dirty sanchez’ please! What to do what to do?

I am so freaking bored and no one is in the office right now and we can’t freaking leave this is just nuts. And I have to work on Friday! Boo!

I need plan and I need to think for a while.

So, this hot guy is cleaning the windows at work. I have so many questions.

1. Do you have to know how the rock climb to clean the windows?

2. How long does it take you to do the whole building?

3. Are you working by yourself?

4. How do you make?

5. Is it scary up around the top floors?

BTW, did I mention he was hot. I want to know more about this industry of cleaning windows in high rise buildings.

So, I have just been so damn busy with life that I have not been able to be my weird random self. I have not been doing my favorite thing to do, writing on this here blog… my bad. This has actually instructions of my therapist. She thinks that writing  is a great outlet and I totally agree. So I am going to try to write everyday again. It is hard to do this at work, but I don’t give a F*CK.

I think I am bored. I have all these things to do but none of them I actually want to do. Yardwork, fixing up the house, cleaning, etc… I think I want to party all the time and sleep all day (thank you to the black eyed peas for their brillant choices in lyrics), but unfortunately I have a small child who likes to wake up about 8am on the weekends and damn if he does not have to get up right then. It sucks. I knew when I was pregnant that I needed to sleep all the time, because I knew I was not going to be able to sleep anymore after pumps was born. I was right, but I think he may be a sleeper and he will very soon sleep in on a weekend basis (keep your fingers cross, I really like sleeping to noon and then getting up to lounge around in jamys for a few more hours before actually doing anything).

I have also been thinking about opening a restuarant or bakery or something like that. I love to cook and bake and I just think it would be great. I probably need to wait until pumps is older because I will have to work alot and right now I can’t leave him that much. Maybe when mom retires, we can do it together. I think I should talk to MMM she would probably like to get in on this. We have always wanted to open a american sports bar in Ireland. I know a bakery in Marietta is a long way away from a bar in Ireland, but I think it would be hard to get work visa’s for Ireland and you know we a citizens of the great USA. So… marietta sounds good so far.

As you can see, I can not make up my mind. Graduate school, a PsyD or open a restaurant or continue working in research. (Today research is winning. MKB has just f*cked up her computer by pulling the cord of the surge protector out and is now under the desk trying to fix it, too funny, I somedays love MKB, she is always good for a great laugh). What to do? What to do? Someday I will make up my mind.

I actually am not unhappy in my current psition in life. I believe I am the type of person who is always happy or at least makes the best out of whatever situation I am in. I love research, it is challanging, hard, fast paced, and very interesting. (this brownie sucks, I remember these they were sponging and gross, BUT I NEED CHOCALATE!!!!!).

Okay, the grosses brownies ever.

MKB is really on today. It is awesome. I wish everyone could see this. She has been burning AMB. It has been great. Earlier today she said that AMB shouldn’t pick her aniversary as a password for something because she wouldn’t remember which one. AMB has been married about 4 times… too funny and then she just said something else. I don’t remember, attention span of a knat. I should work on that.

I can’t think of anything else to say, so… later hater.

So, Saturday was Halloween. My fav!!

Pumpkin was Thomas the train and loved it. Once he figured out that you go to the houses to get candy he was on like Donkey Kong! He did not always say “trick or treat” or thank you, but we are 2, so what do you expect.

When we got home, he would not share his candy with any one. He did seem to forget about it by the next day, which is good. I do not want rotten teeth by the time we are 3. I need to put it up. It was mostly stuff he doesn’t like anyway- chocolate.

Later that night, MMM and I went to a bar in Marietta, Nick’s place. There was a band playing and some family and friends of MMM went so I tagged along. First we went to MMM’s sister’s house (L-M) and she had these bop it inflatable boxing gloves. They were so cool. I of course just picked the up and then MMM put the others on and we boxed. They were so much fun and I totally kicked MMM butt. She is shorter than me though. Then we finally left, everyone else showed up.

At the bar… What a place! There were some really interesting characters and MMM and I determined we need to hang out there more often. The crowd was a mix, mostly young, but then there were about 5 old creepy men. One of then was standing there talking to MMM and I asked her something and then he was holding her hand. Why was old creepy man number 1 holding MMM hand? Who freaking knows but I wanted him to leave but he did not seem to go away.

There was this one chick, name unknown, who was dressed as a vampire. We ended up watching her purse and cigarettes all night. And he was extremely drunk. She kept asking us if her lips were okay. Weird.

There was this guy dressed up as a blind date. He was extremely lame, but the costume idea was completely fantastic.

MMM stole some guy’s beer. I guess she wanted another and he was extremely drunk. I got a pirate hat from MMM’s cousin (whom by the way was so freaking weird I can’t describe it, I really think I need to spend more time with him and maybe devote a whole entry to him).

It was a fantastic night. The entertainment value was great. I had to finally leave when the person dressed as a dirty Sanchez decided to hit on me. Oh it was so gross and as I was leaving one the friends of MMM was so serious about the dirty Sanchez digging on me. GROSS, GROSS!!!!

Oh yeah! I almost forgot we found Jesus. His name is Jeffery and we had met him before at a Starbucks. I took a pic but it is one my phone I shall post later.

I now have confirmed that I completely love Halloween!

So I have been neglecting being me for a while. My bad I have missed my random craziness and I would like to say that I am back.

1st I realized that if ohm is in another state I am quite happy. Yes I need to move or that rat bastard needs to be deported. Whatever comes first would
make me happy.

2nd I really need to get laid and have been thinking about picking up guys lately. Not sure about the whole
Picking up guys but getting laid definitely. It would be about a year since I had sex and that is very very depressing. I am going to have cobwebs soon. I am too young for that. I don’t want a relationship just sex. Is that really too much to ask for? I think not, but I probably need to go out and meet guys instead of bitching about it on this here blog. Yep go out more! Hmmm, hard to do with a 2 year old.

3rd I am teaching my 2 year how to be crazy. Epic lightsaber battles, nerd gun wars and so forth. And the girls, well actually women, i work with think I am a complete nut. I hope that pumps is always true to himself and knows how to have fun. I hope I can at least teach him that.

4th I have seen 2 “little people” at my work in 2 days. I love “little people” they just seem so cool. I know they probably hate it, but you need to play the hand dealt to you and they seem to do a fab job at it. Props, mad props to all the little peeps in the world!

5th I have decided it is very complicated getting a divorce. I need the past year in paycheck stubs, 3 years of tax returns and all kinds of other crazy shit that I have no idea want it actually is. Thank god I have a lawyer to tell me what they need. and yes I have spent 1 hour tonight getting all that crap together to do a mad fax to them tomorrow. I didn’t even do
The work I needed to for tomorrow because in my head list of things to do DIVORCE is number 1.

5.1th divorce is a funny looking word. And no I have not been drinking imam just being me.

6th I am throwing myself a divorce party when it is all done. Mmm went to this bachelorette party and there was this stripper with tricks. I need to see the tricks. So I am have a divorce party with strippers. I can’t wait. Kas said she didn’t want to see strippers but she has to, I take no answer but you are coming and having a great time. I need my bffs by my side.

7th I need to sleep. Later hater

I think I want teach college. This requires a PhD or PsyD and I am not sure I want 6 more years of school. Now for a PhD I would have to take and master the GRE, don’t want to do that.
What to do? What to do? I absolutely love my current career, but I really want to finish what I started back in 1997. I would be a doctor, well a fake doctor. What to do?

Maybe I should talk to mmm and kmas about this. Maybe even mom. Let’s think so more.

So I haven’t written in a while. Busy with life I guess.
Last saturday was kmas bachelorette party. It was so much fun. Drag queens are so fabulous. And we got drunk and danced and partied. I need to get out more and so does kmas. Mmm goes out enough, maybe she needs to take us out more.
I decided that I am the annonying drunk girl who has to talk to everyone. I don’ t freakin’ shut up. I have fun but I probably get on people’s nerves.

So I work in clinical research, and I do not know how to draw blood. So I asked one of my coworkers to do it for
me, like always. She was drawing the blood and I noticed that she had missed one of the serum tubes. The serum tubes must be drawn first because the other tubes have preservatives in them and you don’t want to contaminate the blood. So I asked ” do you forget a tube?”
She said “no. There is an order to drawing the tubes. It is fine.” and then She proceeded to tell me that she used to run a lab and that is how it is done.
Okay, I have never run a lab and I don’t know how to do this so okay.
I get back to the office. Now done with my patient.
She says to me “you can draw your own labs from now on. Don’t second guess me in front of a patient.”
I said “I am sorry. That was not what I was doing, but okay.”
I looked at my lab manual and on my lab recquistion. I was fuckin’ right. There is an order to the tubes and she did it wrong. So now probably (I hope not) my labs will come back fucked up and I will now have to call the patient. In and have them redone.
Really I can fucking read and I pay attention because I don’t know how to do it and I want to learn. So now I have to ask the MAs at work to draw my blood until I can learn. They will not be happy.
I am sorry if I was inapproriate or rude, but I was not wrong.
She did not speak to me for the rest of the day. And I don’t except her to speak to me anymore. I hate fucking working with women. They are so fucking catty and stupid. I am not sure if I need to tell my boss now or what. I did tell mkb. She knew amb was wrong.

So on my way home from work today a 30 seconds to mars song came on. I have to redo my list.

1. Jason statham
2. Keanu reeves
3. Gerald butler
4. Jared Leto
5. Vince vaghn

I can’t spell. Sorry Carey hart I forgot about jared Leto. He is hot and a rocker. Those blue eyes fabulous.

Later