Filed under: craziness, divorce, life, random | Tags: divorce, random, things that make you go hmm.
So I have been neglecting being me for a while. My bad I have missed my random craziness and I would like to say that I am back.
1st I realized that if ohm is in another state I am quite happy. Yes I need to move or that rat bastard needs to be deported. Whatever comes first would
make me happy.
2nd I really need to get laid and have been thinking about picking up guys lately. Not sure about the whole
Picking up guys but getting laid definitely. It would be about a year since I had sex and that is very very depressing. I am going to have cobwebs soon. I am too young for that. I don’t want a relationship just sex. Is that really too much to ask for? I think not, but I probably need to go out and meet guys instead of bitching about it on this here blog. Yep go out more! Hmmm, hard to do with a 2 year old.
3rd I am teaching my 2 year how to be crazy. Epic lightsaber battles, nerd gun wars and so forth. And the girls, well actually women, i work with think I am a complete nut. I hope that pumps is always true to himself and knows how to have fun. I hope I can at least teach him that.
4th I have seen 2 “little people” at my work in 2 days. I love “little people” they just seem so cool. I know they probably hate it, but you need to play the hand dealt to you and they seem to do a fab job at it. Props, mad props to all the little peeps in the world!
5th I have decided it is very complicated getting a divorce. I need the past year in paycheck stubs, 3 years of tax returns and all kinds of other crazy shit that I have no idea want it actually is. Thank god I have a lawyer to tell me what they need. and yes I have spent 1 hour tonight getting all that crap together to do a mad fax to them tomorrow. I didn’t even do
The work I needed to for tomorrow because in my head list of things to do DIVORCE is number 1.
5.1th divorce is a funny looking word. And no I have not been drinking imam just being me.
6th I am throwing myself a divorce party when it is all done. Mmm went to this bachelorette party and there was this stripper with tricks. I need to see the tricks. So I am have a divorce party with strippers. I can’t wait. Kas said she didn’t want to see strippers but she has to, I take no answer but you are coming and having a great time. I need my bffs by my side.
7th I need to sleep. Later hater
I think I want teach college. This requires a PhD or PsyD and I am not sure I want 6 more years of school. Now for a PhD I would have to take and master the GRE, don’t want to do that.
What to do? What to do? I absolutely love my current career, but I really want to finish what I started back in 1997. I would be a doctor, well a fake doctor. What to do?
Maybe I should talk to mmm and kmas about this. Maybe even mom. Let’s think so more.
Filed under: life
So I haven’t written in a while. Busy with life I guess.
Last saturday was kmas bachelorette party. It was so much fun. Drag queens are so fabulous. And we got drunk and danced and partied. I need to get out more and so does kmas. Mmm goes out enough, maybe she needs to take us out more.
I decided that I am the annonying drunk girl who has to talk to everyone. I don’ t freakin’ shut up. I have fun but I probably get on people’s nerves.
So I work in clinical research, and I do not know how to draw blood. So I asked one of my coworkers to do it for
me, like always. She was drawing the blood and I noticed that she had missed one of the serum tubes. The serum tubes must be drawn first because the other tubes have preservatives in them and you don’t want to contaminate the blood. So I asked ” do you forget a tube?”
She said “no. There is an order to drawing the tubes. It is fine.” and then She proceeded to tell me that she used to run a lab and that is how it is done.
Okay, I have never run a lab and I don’t know how to do this so okay.
I get back to the office. Now done with my patient.
She says to me “you can draw your own labs from now on. Don’t second guess me in front of a patient.”
I said “I am sorry. That was not what I was doing, but okay.”
I looked at my lab manual and on my lab recquistion. I was fuckin’ right. There is an order to the tubes and she did it wrong. So now probably (I hope not) my labs will come back fucked up and I will now have to call the patient. In and have them redone.
Really I can fucking read and I pay attention because I don’t know how to do it and I want to learn. So now I have to ask the MAs at work to draw my blood until I can learn. They will not be happy.
I am sorry if I was inapproriate or rude, but I was not wrong.
She did not speak to me for the rest of the day. And I don’t except her to speak to me anymore. I hate fucking working with women. They are so fucking catty and stupid. I am not sure if I need to tell my boss now or what. I did tell mkb. She knew amb was wrong.
So on my way home from work today a 30 seconds to mars song came on. I have to redo my list.
1. Jason statham
2. Keanu reeves
3. Gerald butler
4. Jared Leto
5. Vince vaghn
I can’t spell. Sorry Carey hart I forgot about jared Leto. He is hot and a rocker. Those blue eyes fabulous.
Later
I am so freaking bored. I really need more to do. I don’t want to fuck shit up but I need more work. Idle minds wander. And man I have been wandering.
I decided last night, the next guy I am with must love the beastie boys as much as me. He needs to know all the albums and not just popular ones. I am talking some old bullshit, paul’s bontique, check your head. He will have alot to live up too. My standards of the beasties is really freaking high.
I need to do something. I want to do something, but I am a bit broke right now and I have a bachelorette party on sat, a therapist appointment on Thursday. And no child support from ohm. I will be find. My palm was itchy on Sunday.
I love to eavesdrop on the girls I work with. They are so crazy. One of them makes herself so important and she completely sucks at her job. She can’t read a protocol and when she was hired she thought she was going to be a crc and she is just the recruiter. Now she is going to be the intake coordinator. I wonder of they know what that actually involves. We shall see.
I am so bored and I have nothing to talk about.
Except when my divorce is final I want a party. A really big house party with a fabulous completely naked, well hung fantastic stripper. Mmm meet one last weekend, I hope she got his number. And I want alcohol. Maybe a keg of woodpecker and a pitcher of cosmo. All my peeps are invited! There is only 1 problem with this plan, I need a house to throw it at. And last time I threw a party nobody really showed up. We sure had fun!
I need to find something to do.
So this morning on my way to work, random thought occured. Cows, why do aliens always seem to take them?
Well this thought all began because yesterday I was watching Nottingham hill. And in that movie there was a woman who was a fruitarian (think spelled correctly, not really sure) and she did not eat anything unless it fell from the tree or vine or whatever. She said that some carrots had been murdered. So then my brain went to do we murder cows, yes I think I should become a vegietarian. Then I thought what if cows are really smart and understood what we do to them? That would explain why aliens take them. The cows probably say to the aliens, get me the fuck out of here these crazy things are going to eat me.
And then that was it. Random my brain has returned.
Later
Filed under: happiness, life in full restoration | Tags: Alcohol, friends, happiness
So today started as a very crappy day. Ohm shit as usual. I got about 4 calls from one of my best friends, kmas. I might see her tomorrow. We had a great conversation. I never told her about ohm because she is getting married in a few weeks and I am sure she is stressed. I didn’t want to ruin this time for her. I love my kmas and I wNt the next few weeks to only be about her. I will be fine and talking only pisses me off more. I hope to see her tomorrow I do miss my kmas. I used to work with her and saw her everyday. I miss that and now she lives on the other side of the world and that is really fucking far. I need to be a better friend. I will meet her where ever. We will. Coffe after work. Dinner on a weekend. I have come to love the ATL and we will spend alot of time there in the future.
And then mmm called and said drinks, well actually beer. I was thinking that same thing in the morning, but I didn’t want to bother her. She has been busy lately and I knew she had things to do this weekend. I am glad she called.
Taco mac at 9 pm.
I have such a great life. I have the best friends in the world and a wonderful family and the bestest pumpkin. So in the end today was awesome. I need to get out talk to my friends and have fun.
Mom and pumps and me went to walmart today. Me and pumps tried to have a sword fight in the toy department but. Mom wasn’t feeling good so I felt bad and we got on with our shopping. I promise to take pumps to toys r us soon to run around the store and play with all the toys. I should have bought the swords so we can have sword fights at home.
And then I bought a $5 purple wig. I am wearing it to the bachelorette party next week. It will be Awesome!
And then later drinks with mmm. We had such a good time. We talked and I decided that ohm was winning by being such a jerk, but you know I am the actual winner. I always will be. And then we discussed everything. Going out and clubbing and just hanging out girl time. Tatoos and nose rings. And plans for the future. It was a great way to end this crazy roller coaster of a few weeks.
And then I saw a VW bus on my way home. It made me really happy.
Life is crazy. You never know what to expect and then the shit hits the fan and then it is back to normal.
I will always win.
So I am still angry. Not irrational but angry. Ohm won’t admit that he mistreated me used me. He keeps telling me I am just crazy and unhappy. I have a great life, a great job, a great son, a great family, and a great family. I am in such great place in my life. I have been happy, I am happy. I could deal with regular sex, but other then that I am good. That man wasted my time, well not completely I do have the bestest pumpkin in the whole world. I just can figure out when he became such a bad person.
I have also decided that ohm is not worth any of this. He was never good enough for me and he is not good enough for pumpkin.
I need to be civil. I need to let go. I need to find someone and f*ck the hell out of them.
I have an appointment with a therapist next week. It can not come soon enough. I need to work through my feelings and get on with it.
I think that he thinks I am sitting around pining over him. I am not I am justt shocked and angry at him and his behavior.
I am done.
Filed under: random
Okay 2 things.
1st why do people wear shirts with pictures of other people on them. I know, I know when I was maybe 10 I sported an awesome NKOTB shirt with a fab picnic Jonathan, my personal fav, but I was 10. I now see grown men walking around with other men plastered on the front of their chests and it truely distrubs me.
2nd- crap now I don’t remember. What the hell was it. Oh yeah, I think I want to get my nose peirced. I wonder if it would look good on me? I need to talk to mmm she has hers done. And do you think I could get away with it at work? That I guess is the real question, they are extremely professional around here.
You know I should just get the Tat I want and be done with it, but you know me I can’t make up my mind.
Later
